Natural born dictators

I and my father were sitting watching the news on tv. Drinking sweet tee. Like usual Syrians.
Both with our own mountains of anger, unjustice feelings, and bitterness in this poor rotten place to live, crushing our chests. Allthough my experiences are nothing to compare to his.. Watching the arab news does'nt really help the mood ofcourse.

I said bitterly: I wish I could remove the filthy [part of] memory of us young arabs. Let us get reborn like humans this time and have a different future than this pitch black present!
[ removing all these dark age thoughts making us to be proud of (!)living like pre-viruses million years ago, and that, in the name of relgion and traditions(!), and having violent traditions, etc etc]
He answered me something about it won't be enough. I need to do that with their parents too or otherwise they will turn them back to what they where.

But let's just stop my black bitterness a while , we all know we got problems. Really bad. Just like so many Syrians, I was bitter, felt very alienated in my own city, there was no hope here. No future. And I felt there is nothing that holds me back here..I could'nt care any more. When I calmed down I realized how things just get worse when young pepole loose their mood and moral like this, it is so dangerous not to care any more..Since we are living dead like this. As we have been, for many years...I was wondering : How and why did we end up like this??

Let's start with the begging: We learn to obey our parents to any price and respect them deeply. As we should, belonging to good conservative respectfull families. It means: Do not ever dare to disscus with them, when they give you orders, they are always right even when they are wrong. Learn to blindly obey them and cancell your [disrespectful] opinion and independet thinking. You are not permitted to use your dangerous mind yet. You are younger and smaller so you are weaker and your words worth almost nothing. And you, the smaller weaker, will be beaten up by the bigger.
Same goes for teachers when you go to school. And they also can beat you a lot and it doesn't even matter if it was your fault or not. If you try to explain that means you dared to discuss, you unrespectful, and you get twice as much beaten and humulated in front of all your freinds. And don't you dare be disrespectful and look UP in the eyes of the teacher, as if you are daring to show her anger or protest you animal, you keep your eyes and head DOWN..[where you belong]. And you might be spared on teacher's day if you bring good gifts!
Back at home : Yoy are helpfull and respektfull to your parents, your mother is a good wife who takes care of your father, respects him and obeys him. Oh and by the way in Syria thank god women live like queens and suffer no discrimination compared with men, and everyone in the family is drowning with love and care. Your stressed mother forgot the required amount respect in her looks to her loving mother in law, then your bigger wiser father reminded your weaker crying mother about respect. And you ran away out of respect for your father's angry red eyes. Your wise parents allready know what you should study/ do when you are older. They know best.

In the school you learn to respect and love your country and leader It means your leader, and learn every word he ever said, and remember he is eternal...and you can look UP to his pictures and statues covering the city from DOWN where you belong. And you sure as hell learn to respect him, he seems more loved and powerfull than god.


Beeing youngster, You learn to stay at your room,you are allowed to study, obey your parents, do not meet with devil (other sex).They know best who you should marry and the rest of YOUR life with, And if you are a girl,( living like a queen here thank god), do remember your loving parents might kill every atom in your body and get away with it..They know best who you should marry..And even take honour in it!So Respect and obey!

I know I might have exaggerated a bit, but not that much...Now...With this impossible weight of attempts to deny your rights, deny your right of independant existence, attempt to fight nature, you get used to this sort of life. You can't wait untill you get your hands on some one weaker than you, so you can finally have some power! There is a power and control absolut hysteria!! and generations inherit it as it goes on.
And so...Our great proude, eastern conservative socities , are so true ( Asileh) and great. And with this great healthy tradition of hearing and accepting the other opinion,and Respect, thank god no human rights are horribly violated in Tadmur, mazeh, seidnaya, ..No officals are using their power to steal from and oppress the pepole, no neighbours are stealing electricity and phone line from others, no pepole are throwing their garbaga at the common streets or neighbours' garden, no strong rich pepolr are playing with the cheap lives of poor,and the situation here has nothing to do with the law of jungle were the stongest rules...etc.



I don't beleive any one is born a killer, or a dictator...but with the "right" attitude, and in the name of (!!!!!) the holy unbreakable traditions and religion...We can raise a whole country.
I sound quite pessimistic...I admit that. Not all the pepole are like that, but I feel really there are too many...And I think I have the right to explode, some times.
And if there is any foreginer reading here : I meant what I wrote hear, but don't make a jugment too soon though... Syria has a bit of everything..