A girl's fight to walk in her city.

It's not easy to try to be an independent girl here.
Even if my family is quite liberal, the problem does'nt end there. A while ago it was nice weather, and I have been spendig a lot of time inside, reading, and doing other things I had to do. When then finally I had some freetime I wanted desperatly to enjoy it. I wanted to get out of the appartements's walls. I wanted to enjoy my city and go on a long walk. Enjoy this little temporary freedom. My father agreed on letting me go , alone, seeing I allready made my desicion, and no one wanted or could accompagny me. But he did'nt like it: Me walking alone.
But that is what I wanted. I was tired of the family's shouting and wanted to find some peace, alone.
So I walked. Alone. Feeling very free and happy. But in some crowded areas, I was bothered.
In Salheie for example a couple of young men fowllowed me for a while, practising (a bit agressive) "taltish"(=hitting )on girls.
That sort of thing happens all over the world, young men attracted to women and trying to get in contact with them. So...I should'nt get too upset..
But no, there is some thing else. They where very (too) persistent, allthough it was clear I was angry at that. They followed me for a long time before I could loose them. These young men, their looks..They where poor, very poor, no doubt, dark skinned, have been outside often, alot, I am guessing they have spent a big part of their time outside, on the streets. Wearing very old sweaty thin funny coulorfull shirts. They did'nt really have a plan walking in the city..They had nothing to do... A big possibility they where poor unemployees. After beeing very angry at them, I felt sorry for them. When something bother's you it's very important to see it from the other side too. These poor, men who looked almost like beggars..
They are ...Young men..Yes...No matter what, they,
in this spring time of their lifes, need girls' company desperatly. It is nature, as strong as a hurricane, no religion nor poverty or conservative society can ever ever brake it..And what are their chances of getting that ?!...So poor, simple, no job, probably no education..How easy will it be to find a bride here?..Since relations are banned in this conservative society..Mostly, to get approved a coulpe need to be engaged or married. Impossible for so many young Syrians with the horrible unemployment and economy. So living without any contact with the other sex..against nature..leads to a psycological sexual crisis, and they get mad like if they never seen a girl before..Which is a little true in conservative socities, and there are too many...
And as they act like crazy sexually starved men, even liberal families get scared and hide their dotters at home. And with even less girls that men at least can look at and dream, the problem get worse and the men get even more obsesst. And on it goes...
This conservative stupid way of thinking is the reason for all troubles here, instead of accepting nature and letting women go out with men and search for love and grow up emotionally ,(and just ask dotters about boys they like and when they have a relationship the family can invite the man to meet him..and even meet his family, so they feel safe!), instead of that pepole insist on living in dark ages,making things go from bad to worse..
Pepole fight over the length of women's skirts or other clothes, while nobody is fighting for a dying lifeless Syria, and over 250 million arabs insisting on living in the dark ages,in the name of religion and traditions!, and still wondering(!!) why they are defeated by so few -free- pepole , and occupied, erased, killed, and hungry, poor, weak..
I wish I wrote thist in arabic!
And as for me....I am too a citizen of this city, and I have as much right to walk on it's streets, alone, just like all the men walking in it. And I am not going to give up that right!